Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I already agreed to help her move so I am planning to do so. I will always know that I tried all that I could and stayed true to myself.

You guys are probably right and I may be kicking myself for it in the future, but I feel that its something I have to do.

I can see that she is in pain occasionally when she doesn't have her "hardass" face on. (I bet you all know what I'm talking about here)

She needs to go at this point. Clearly she has seen this to the magic bullet to her happiness and will never be able to let it go if she doesn't see for herself.

She is still nice to me until I mention anting about moving or our R. Then she becomes a different person. I heard her crying yesterday. It took everything that I had not to go check on her. I just can't do that right now though.

Hopefully I have been a good enough man for her to miss after she leaves.

It's strange. I'm having a hard time remembering the good times now. I can remeber the warm feelings though.

I have had to fight reaching out to her today.