Hi Oblivious, you are numb, you are hurting. Many of us on here get it, we understand. But as stated, you have to get your wits about you; just because your W has taken leave of her senses doesn't mean you have to go along for the ride. In fact, the opposite applies.
You got Coach, Robx, Puppy, and Greek dropping by already - they are absolutely immense in the advice they share. Please listen.
They can probably point out what's wrong in the way you are handling this better than I can. I don't know where to even start.
Perhaps I'll mention 2 things - 1) You appear not only buying into the classic cake eating WAS script but taking a starring role - I can hardly take in YOU saying you think your W loves you but is not in love with you. 2) Stop being Oblivious - your screen name is a worrying indication of your state of mind. Don't choose to be ignorant, weak, and a doormat.
Me 42 W 39 Married: 11 Jan 1998, T: Since 1992 First Bomb: Sep 2007 Confirmed A/OM: 4 Nov 2007 Kids: D10, S5 Reconciled and together again after (alot of) time and heartbreak. 3rd kid, S, born 2 Jan 2010.