She must be seeing a lawyer...what now?

[Awoken]

I talked with my lawyer at length late yesterday, and I'm feeling very discouraged.

My L and I poured over the details of the process in my particular county, and she thinks proving the BPD and alcoholism will be difficult and very costly. The retainer is 5k, but the cost of this could skyrocket to 6x-10x that amount. I don't have even close to this kind of money; w's family does. The soonest I could start the process would be middle of next week.

She also thinks I should go to the MC with wife next week, as resisting MC would damage my position.

Am I allowing my fear to dominate me by listening to L and MC counsel, or am I being prudent?

I can tell I'm not in a good condition to make choices, and I've got to start taking better care of myself. The timing is terrible. W left for Seattle today, and I've never felt so lonely. I'm gonna enjoy my time with the kids, and I've got to avoid burdening them with my sadness, put my game face on! I've got this awful feeling that this is the last thanksgiving in our home. I know that is exaggerated, but that's how it feels today.

I'm thinking I should take a break from the forums. However, one of the things I'm most thankful for this holiday is the participation of everyone here on the forum.