can pursuing a WAS be a 180?

[avermont]

Ay, but there's the rub. I am so strong, so independent--taking care to protect my heart from pain--so much so I created the situation I was trying to protect myself from.

I am working with the therapist on this, but you can see the conflict-- I need to be super strong, super independent, super taking care of myself right at the same time I want to develop, show, share, express, the vulnerable, open to love and possible hurt AV that I need to be, either in a new R with X or a new R at all.

So, trying to do all things at once: detach; open up; be strong; be willing to be vulnerable. Quite a mix!

Thanks for the cheering on!