So I have made a choice. I am going to go over to my friends house tomorrow ( previous two posts ) and I am going to hand him my journal and the link to this thread. I will sit there while he reads both. Answer any questions. I will take that awkward 2 hours over losing a good friendship that I want to continue. And if that does not help him. Then I will see what else I can do to make him comfortable again around me and when I am around his soon to be wife. I really wanted to keep this online stuff personal and away from people I see weekly. And I never thought anyone would ever read my journal. But its a friendship that is worth it. One that I want to keep going throughout my days. They are both very good friends who have been around for many years.
I think this will be awkward for him as well since he is not normally a very open person. He has many traits that my WAS had. They were good friends and this break up has strained their relationship. His soon to be wife asked WAS to be her maid of honour. So I do not know what can of worms this will open up. If any.
I really feel stuck here. But I really want to do what ever it takes to keep a friendship going. Those folks have really helped me so much over the last few months. I tossed a life line and they helped more than they will ever know.
Well tomorrow night one of them will find out how much they helped.
