The DB two step

[Dr LOve]

THanks Yoyo and Tomato.."I'll be praying for your continued restoration"

I can use them.


Allot of little things are happening. I am growing too. I know I have tried to do things for W and NOT expect things in return but deep down it is hard. No matter` how much your words say you don't expect anything or you have let go of the OM deep down in your sub concuss you do and you have not. But I think there does come a time when all of a sudden you have a revelation and realize you have let go or don't really expect anything. It just happens...
I did do some retail therapy and bought myself a Garmin GPS. It has blue tooth so you can answer your cell phone hands free through it.
When I got home I could tell wife really liked it. The next day I was on my way to buy a new trailer hitch for my P/U and started thinking about how wife misses phone calls while driving, how she has to grab her ear piece if she does not have it on and how there is a $100.00 fine if you are caught talking on the cell phone while driving. So instead of the trailer hitch I detoured and went to where I bought my Garmin and bought one for W.
I have sold most of my wood already this year so I could wait on the hitch. ANYWAY...
When I got home I was in my room and wife came in I handed her the box and said here ya go. She said “what’s this?” I said “It’s for you” she said “your kidding you did not have to get me this” I said “I don’t do anything I don’t want to do” and I left the room. She followed me down the hall and when I stopped and turned around she was wiping her eye. Now I don’t know if she was starting to tear up of just has something in it but it did seem like a tear. She then came up to me and gave me a kiss. That’s right SHE gave me a kiss. This is the first one she initiated in a loooong time. I just accepted it and went about my business. I truly was not expecting anything.
Then yesterday after she did the laundry she put my clothes away for me. In the past she just left them on my (our) bed.
I think I finely understand what loving detachment is. The P.D Xmas party is coming up soon. A while ago I wanted to go by myself and really have a good time. Today I brought home the invite and I did ask W if she wanted to go and she said yes. I don’t know how to describe it but it somehow feels like a first date. I mean a real first date. I think I have found that “leap” that freckles was talking about. How you need to detach before you can try to reconnect again.
Am I at the last turn on this journey? I don’t know but stay tuned…..

Doc