Right now when I see my W I feel pity towards her. True I am attracted physically to her, but emotionally, I just feel sorry. She could have everything she wanted and ever asked for, but she's not reaching for it.
Over the weekend, she had the chance to go out with her friends but it was raining so she opted not to. I, on the other hand, spent the night at my friend's on Friday night and still taking it slow. Saw my W on Saturday and had lunch together with the girls. That night was when she was planning to go out but didn't.
Then Sunday, she stopped by the house to drop something off and we ended up having dinner together. It was light and casual. At this point, I'm not going out of my way to amuse her or make her happy. I don't think she's being "attracted" back. She's got a long way to go before she can heal.
Meanwhile, I've asked my friend to come over on Friday and we were going to spend the day and the next together. Right now if my W doesn't start getting her butt in gear, she's going to lose it all. Sad how I have to end up balancing the two.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
