JoJo---thank you. I've been told that before, and I know I will probably take heat for saying it----but I was no one before H---the "used to be" was a teenager. It's really a sad state that I'm faced with finding myself at 44----and yes, I know it's about time! (Still looking for the manual on how to do that.)
I was 15 when we started dating. I have made my whole life about H, and our family. I have done A LOT of soul searching. I have done my best to GAL. I am finding new interests. I know what mistakes I have made----number one was making my whole life about H and family and not learning what makes me happy. I know what I need to work on (and have made some progress), but now faced with all of the responsibilities of parenting, running a household all by myself and now working full time (just since August),finding any time to do anything but survive is difficult.
I am striving to find happiness with myself. It is a daily struggle. When I first came to this site 2 years (wow! 2 years!) ago I didn't think I could survive without H. I now know that isn't true. Some days I still don't want to-----but that's now a minority of the time. AND, I am beginning to be able to live like he isn't coming back.
I appreciate the input---and they hijack (thanks YR)!
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
