Coping with Bi-Polar WAW

[CountingCrows]

D@amn, it's hard to have contact with W nearly every day without somehow having it lead to at least something about R. Today, W came over to see s7 off to school, and we ended up rehashing what happened when she was over 2 hours late picking up s7 for overnight visit.

After I left, she tried to use her computer on my WiFi network and realized that she couldn't connect (denied her MAC address last week). Called and asked if this was intentional, and I said "yes". Ended up telling her that because of the decisions that she has made and is still making, all the little things I have done for her out of kindness/love/friendship in the past are coming to a end.

W has spent the last 4 weeks completely closing me out of her life, and replacing our friendship with someone else. The only reason I have any contact at all with her at this point is because of s7.

Told W how disrespectful to me and to s7 it was for her to disregard a schedule that we had made, and that I had to draw a line on actions like that. Made sure that she understood that despite the fact that s7 was happy to see her when she finally arrived, he had spent over 2 hours very upset and anxious about "why isn't mommy coming to pick me up?". Once more, I admitted I was wrong by not making sure she knew that I was leaving with s7 at our scheduled pickup time, and that I was not only remorseful, but repentant and I would never do that again.

She's SO furious at me, and despite my efforts to avoid discussing R, she seems to push our discussions to the edge of R talk. All I could do was reiterate she knew where I stood and that SHE was the one who was making these decisions for her life. I was simply trying to move forward and live my life and take care of our son.

Quite frankly, after 4 weeks, my heartbreak and sorrow seems to be mutating into anger and frustration with having to deal with her so often. I still love her, and would still like to have our family back together. However, at this point, she's so blinded by her infatuation with OM (who I'm not bringing up at all when we talk), she's not even close to thinking along those lines.