Yesterday I spent the evening mending all of H's pants that were in my sewing basket so I could leave with a clean conscience about them.
I was feeling better about leaving, more sure about it, but now I feel a wreck again, I'm hearing the little voice. I hate these ups and downs. I'm still battling the illusion that I have a normal marriage with getting ready for the holiday. We haven't had any blow-ups or discussions recently and that makes it tough for me when there's quite a bit of time in between....I haven't told him that I know what he did- I'll do that on my way out.
Bunny Little Girl inside Bunny Bunny
Ups and downs are normal as you know. We all have that little child inside us. Right now you just have to assure her that you have everything under control and take her sticky little hands off the steering wheel!
And when you get like that, stop, change up, go do something physical or silly.
Like skipping. Yes, skipping. Speaking of little girls, when was the last time you skipped? It's impossible to feel or think anything negative while skipping. True.
You're doing great; you'll be fine.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
