My wife got very upset again yesterday, she was crying on the phone. She was upset that "I am doing the things now I should have done years ago". "Why didn't you do those when you could have saved our marriage?".
I told her that I wish I had, but I am now and it is not too late to stop this. She said it was too late and she wanted a divorce.
She told me I needed to move out of the house (we have two houses, but the parents rotate, the kids stay at the primary house), so this is my last week in our new home. I will be moving into our old house after thanksgiving.
I still have not seen divorce papers.
I am giving up. I worry that as soon as I do this though, she will change her mind; and then I will be moving forward, and have to decide if I want to return.
She delayed our initial hearing for the divorce from Dec 13th to Jan 13th because she didn't want to do it over the holidays. Then she uses that against me when I say I want to keep doing what we are doing with the houses until after the 1st of the year. She told me that then she would get an attorney, have the hearing moved up and get this resolved quicker...so I relented. We discuss the logistics of this on Wednesday night.
I think I need to come to grips with the fact that my marriage is over. That I am essentially a single person now and focus on making a good second home for my kids and start rebuilding my life and moving forward.
My wife is right, I should have done counseling years ago. It is unfortunate that she is making a good man for some other woman who is going to benefit from her pain. However, at this point, that is what it is.
