Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

Hi yoyo....nc, your words are just about right on.

Wkend was good. H was home by late late Friday night. Sat. was S3's bday party. Everyone had a good time. H was more helpful, since I did say something to him to the effect that he is the father and should be helping out with his son's party as much as me. So he did help, thankfully.

Sunday we went down to see his grandmother who is very old and just had surgery. I took the boys to the beach there and they collected shells.. they had a good time...

Then H springs on me that he wants another baby! Yup, can you believe it. I said first of all, your not home enought, secondly we have our owns issues that haven't been resolved thirdly, most of the time I am like a single parent, and I think im too old.

To tell you the truth, I would set aside all of that, IF we had a better relationship. If we did then I would consider it, even though I know the responsibility would ultimately fall on my shoulders, but I have to go back and remember what he does to me and how he treats me when things aren't good, and it brings me the answer NO!

It blows my mind... I did also tell him that, you complain now that you don't get enough attention from me, what do you think another kid would do???

I don't get it.