A bit better today but haven't been sleeping or eating at all.
Things are very tough. I'm very sad that I will never see or hear from W again. Especially considering how much I still love her. The NC has brought those feelings back again. I wish I didn't love her. I wish I hated her as this would be easier.
Also very upset at her couldn't care less attitude towards my mum. That woman who is living around the corner from here with her OM is not the woman I married. I think back to the time when her gran died and how supportive I was and how I was always there for her.
I know I will feel better but I just hope it's sooner rather than later.
Off to see her friend this afternoon. Don't think this is the best day but I would like to get it out of the way.
Also trying to find out more info on the OM (such as where he used to live). Not sure what to do with it but was considering seeing if I could contact his ex-girlfriend / ex-wife to find out a bit more about him. Not sure. Maybe there is a current wife / current girlfriend.
Last edited by P17; 11/23/0910:04 AM.
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"