Sounds like you are really starting to detach from W, which is a good thing for your own sake. Obviously the feelings of sadness of seeing other happy families is normal...I go thru that all the time (or sometimes even the anger of "how come I don't have that? How come they're so lucky?")
It's hard to know what W is thinking and I know you say you do not see any "love or affection in W's face" when she sees you, but as you said before, she still trusts you and has turned to you in different situations, so at least you have those building blocks...so in other words, you don't have "nothing" to start with. Just continue to try to evaluate the things she saw lacking in you and your M, and if appropriate and building of your own character, become that man. And even if things don't come around with W, you'll still be better for it.
Just one word of warning, it sounds like you are really becoming interested in the other interest. It seems to me that it would be best to not get involved with someone right now, but it seems like you might be on track to make it something more. Everyone needs friends, but I would try to keep it just at that level (but I think that it's just difficult when you have that attraction there). Just a thought. You just got to think about what you are willing to do and sacrifice for W.
A C sounds like a great idea, especially since your work pays for the first 3 sessions. I wish I could do that to help me deal with this as well. It's tough!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
