Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

LOL-
I should change it back...I got a little paranoid this morning b/c H came downstirs where I was on the computer on this forum and saw the tab "still in the tunnel with hubby" and asked about it...I told him I was reading some of the things online...I was scared (and unrealistically paranoid) that H would snoop a bit and read all my postings and that would be the last straw..

When I tried to change it I thought an administrator would have to...didn't know it took...I'll go back to KJ if I can. HO-that made me laugh D!

H and I had a stressful talk this morning. We took a time out and had a much better conversation this afternoon..I think H isn't sure about a separation or D- he knows he doesn't do well alone..he's just miserable (as am I)...

If things improve...then things improve. If not, then separation...I did well DBing this afternoon...did better at being clear and nondefensive in my communication. He hugged me goodbye. So thats a bit better.

He feels I'm clingy and needy- he can't give me examples of this, a description that I don't think would describe me..He said his therapist perceived me that way...I've been GALing quite well, mentally detaching more(except yesterday ) not really getting into things too much with H, not asking much(I pay for everything, clean, cook, organize schedules, laundry...you name it-its me doing it) so not sure how needy I am..Don't say ILY..this just puzzles me.

For every low there is a creeping movement upward....