I didnt chat with him last night, had a really nice ME evening, coloured my hair, did all the girly sorta maintenance and had a nice evening watching what telly I wanted and surfed the net and did a bit of online shopping! And didnt waste an ounce of energy chatting to H or thinking about him lol!
Tonight he asks what I did last night! So I told him I had a ME night. He asked what one of those was.
My reply:
Its just a case of being more interested/focussed on what Im doing for me, and putting aside the things/people that invade my space and stop me theoretically paying attention to me. I need to look after me, mentally, physically and I wasnt before and now I intend too!
He was impressed and wanted to know who taught me this and Im so not telling lol. Thing is I sense he'd like to be doing this for himself but doesnt know where to start and at the moment seems to be doing a grand job of blaming his lack of self esteem & confidence for every thing. When I said he needed to sort it, he said he couldnt afford too! Oh and btw he says hes not having a MLC.. and my AWAL H as I now call him also asked me what I wanted for Xmas.. I best not tell him!
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
