Why does my WAW want to go on vacation, clean the house, make Sunday dinner, go to my XMAS party????
Because she wants the best of both worlds. She wants out, but wants to feel like she hasn't abondoned her kids. She wants to keep her old life waiting on the back burner, just in case her new one isn't what she thought it would be. Because she likes "gray" and not "black and white". Because she is fine living in limbo - because I made it too easy for her to get a nice single woman's apartment and fill it with single woman things. Because even though she rarely eats sweets, she suddenly loves eating cake. Because some day she might love the man I might become and that's a whole lot easier than loving me as I am.
I am not done fighting for my marriage, but I am done fighting for it from a position of total weakness.
