Honestly, it's a awesome and a little scary. I know it's supposed to be counter intuitive and I know it's supposed to work. But...putting everything on the line was tough.
A couple of times she mentioned what is good for the kids and said I was being selfish. I know the kids will be fine. They are 18 and 16 and she can still see them as much as she likes. We just won't be playing family.
Friday, I decided to tell her that I accidentally found out the location of her apartment, and yesterday she said something about how I would snoop and spy. I said "I want nothing to do with your non family home". That one really hit home and she said it was mean. I apologized and said I didn't intend to be mean (but I did intend to get her attention).
At one point today, when she questioned my comments I said "I have nothing to lose" and she responded with "you have have everything to lose". Nice threat. During that conversation this morning, she again alluded to the fact that to her moving out doesn't mean the marriage is over. I really wonder what she actually thinks. I know it doesn't matter, but still, I would love to know what's going on in that head of hers.
WAW will be spending most of the day with her dying grandmother, so when she comes home I will be comforting, but not clingy. Tonight we will be having our final Sunday dinner together as a family and I made sure to mention that it would be just that. Again, a puposeful shot of reality for her.
I would love a barrage of tests on my boundaries. That would mean she is the pursuer.
The hardest part for me between now and moving day will be to not bring up the R in any way. That is my major weak spot. I always want to temperature check. I finally made clear comments on all that really needs to be discussed, now I need to SHUT UP.
I hope Puppy reads this - reading No More Mr Nice Guy helped give me the balls to finally stand up to my WAW today. I also thought what would Puppy/Robx/Coach tell me to say right now?
Folks...support me like never before this coming week and do not let me backslide. It's too late to stop the move, but that doesn't mean this is over.
