great post earlier about detachment and happiness Gima. I am going through something similar, where I relied on my WAS a great deal and when she left I was devastated. She was pretty much everything to me and I was left with nothing. Ive been working the past couple of months on myself and it feels great. I still have my bad moments, usually last a couple of hours, but its better than having bad full days.
Hope, I havent seen my WAS in over a month, then she came by last week to drop something off. I told her I didnt want to see her, but she didnt think I was home. The encounter only lasted about 2 minutes, I didnt say anything to her only listened. When she left though, all the emotions came streaming back. It was hard. The hardest part of my situation is the loneliness, which I relied on her to fill. I am still working on that part, and I know I am getting better. People around me see it and I feel it. Your best bet is to go NC, it makes it easier to detach.
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D talk-7/28/09 W Moved out-9/01/09 W wants D-9/22/09 W doesnt want D-12/1/09 W Moved in/I Moved out-12/21/09 W wants D-1/19/10 D Final-04/15/10