She must be seeing a lawyer...what now?

[Awoken]

W told me this morning that she did see a lawyer, and she'll decide what she's gonna do over the thanksgiving break.
She's not happy I separated our finances. She canceled her IC with MC on Monday, and said we should schedule a meeting with MC together (presumably to work out D) when she gets back from trip. I said "I'll have to think about that".

Then I allowed it to turn into an R talk; I should have just walked away! This sucks. She says she's really really angry that I'm been making these changes in myself these past four weeks. She's never wanted to be married all these years, and never brought up any concerns because it would just lead to this. This is script, right?

Then I said, that what ever happened, things would have to be very different. It's not acceptable to me for you to put the kids in the middle by talking about me to D17, or having the kids move your stuff out of the room. She protested, and I said D17 told me she told you it wasn't cool. (silence from W).

I then said I'm worried about your drinking and how it effects the family. She says I'm drinking less, and I say I know you are drinking more. (silence)

Then is it just a coincidence that you created your plan to leave the family right after you quit your meds? She says I can make decisions on my own. and I said, our agreement has always been to discuss your medicines together so this is something else you have done on your own outside the M. My reactions have been to take care of the family.

I walked outside to get away(in the rain).

I talked too long. It's hard, because I need to be home with my kids and yet avoid her as much as possible. I don't want to just hide in my room;