You are fearing something that you do not control and that, at this point, has only occured in your mind. Stop worrying about something you can't control. What food does it do?
While you don't control what your H does, you DO control how you react to it.
What are you afraid of? At the core, what is it?
And what helped you find that inner happiness (a very good thing you now know)? Hope, YOU are the only person who can take THAT inner happiness away. Why would you give H the control and power to take THAT away from you?
