Can I save my marriage?

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So,has anybody felt detached one day, and then not the next? I had a good night last night even after the huge dramatic day I had yesterday. I started to picture my H in the mall with the boys and his best friend who is connected to the hip with. And it was such a turn off. Just thinking about my H actually wanting to spend all his time with his single best buddy and the kids rather than me and the kids really made me upset. So last night what I imagined to be a bad night for me after what happened yesterday actually was good. I actually felt detached. I didn't think about him, I didn't wonder where he was, I felt okay being alone. It was wonderful.

Then I wake up today and its the opposite. I miss him like crazy, I am dying to talk to him, I would actually die to see him, and I just want him to come home. I think alot is because I'm nervous about talking to him again as our last conversation wasn't that good. So I'm more curious to see if he gets over this hurdle or not. I don't know why I can't detach fully, and for good. I have two parties to go to tonight and I'm throwing a baby shower tomorrow, so its not like I am not GAL'ing!! I am. And it still bothers me.