#67 Cant find my "pieces"

[addie]

I wasn't aware it was your name day. Happy name day, Maria! I'll have to remember the date.

You can't be a WAS since you are reacting to all the pain of your H's PA and walking out on your M. You're not sure if you can ever forgive him for all the pain and all the damage he has caused. You need certain things from him and although the very expensive purse is nice, you need a lot more actions of love from him on a consistent basis. You don't want the H of the last 3+ years and unless he can prove to you that he has changed or is taking concrete steps to change and will never do this again, you're not sure if "you're in 100%". I am living these feelings too (minus the desire to date other men). I understand the dilemma.