first off thanks for all the help. I thought I was bashed pretty heavy on here lately but you were all right . I have decided to make a change in myself, I didn't like who I've become. All my life I've been a good, kind person. This past week I returned to my old self, my anger is gone. If my wife is going to continue her life without me I am preparing to start a life without her. Before this she said she couldn't wait to get out of here, there's so much tension. (showing her the bad) Now she has seeked me out for little things, we have small conversations, joke, nothing major but good. I won't expect anything but even if it doesn't lead to more I'm accepting and prepared to move on. And I feel so much better.
