One more thought... you do sound very emotional right now. When you are really emotional is not the time to make major decisions. There is no urgent rush to decide anything right now. Stop, breathe deeply, make yourself a cup of tea, let your emotions calm so you can THINK. Then you can start to strategize what to do next.
We call it the 48-Hour Rule: If it's a good idea now it will still be so in 48 hours. Then execute. Don't be rash, act out of emotion. Journal and vent, here. Try out ideas here, first. We'll give you the go-ahead or clunk you on your noggin with a 2x4 and tell you why!
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
