LO, it's so GOOD to see you!!! Are you going to post a thread with an update or something? I'm sure there are many of us that would love to find out all about how you're doing!!!
I think that shouldn't be that surprising maybe. I know my X has lots of unrealistic expectations; has said D will basically solve all our problems, and everyone will be happier. Then you get the divorce and that doesn't happen, and maybe some things are even more difficult: with children and finances and step parenting etc. The OP shows more of their flaws. Maybe almost more surprising if that didn't happen. But I suspect some of our X's probably just wouldn't admit their feelings of regret though.