To make a long story short, here's the short version: H and I divorced almost 2 years. I was the WAS, but lately we've been doing many things together..have a long range plan to Disney with our s. I've been getting more attached to him, the more we do together..and told him so, yet he still tells me he has no interest romantically and doesn't know if he ever will. He was surprised when I told him I was developing an attachment to him (this after I expressed to him months ago that I'd like to reconcile). It's been difficult lately, for me to go on as just friends when I feel like his actions show more than that. (he took the family out for my birthday, halloween, a couple days we went to farms for fritters and corn mazes, we have holiday parties to go to, all with our s..and more)..So, what I ended up doing out of reaction to hurt, was cancelling all further plans we had and thought that we should live more like many divorced people with kids do and just be cordial during pick ups and drop offs. Do birthdays, but we don't have to do Holidays and pretend for our s's sake that things are fine and wonderful. Our s wants us back together and I feel like that gets his hopes up too, and maybe that's not so good for him either? It's very difficult to have such mixed emotions on my part when he verbalizes he has none. tonight we're supposed to go to a reception party, I think he's still coming to that since we RSVP's a few weeks ago and it's a big party. Not really sure how to act...like everything is fine? Do my own thing at the party? or stand with him as my date? Ugh...any ideas?
