Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

I went to the exotic dancing class! There were 4 other girls there, all a size 2 (not exaggerating) and some were training to get moves for a stripper job. I am not the most cooridinated but luckily the teacher paired verbal directions with the moves (I am very verbal!) I still had fun and felt sexy. After the class I chatted with the teacher and she told me she used to be a size 14 (I am a 16 but not usually and NOT for long!) and she is a grandma with a son in his 20s. I thought SHE was 28-29!! SHe said she drinks a lot of green tea! SHe said her class in a different location has wpmen from a larger range of sizes so I might go to that one. Tomorrow I will be sore for sure!

WH was in a neutral mood tonight. Whatever. I kept reminding myself that no matter what, I will be okay. I am still young and even if I wasn't, people still move on at any age.

I am a good catch; no addictions, am attractive, fun, nice, warm, and this time next year I will be happier with or without my WH. Seriously, if he gives up on our marriage, I will be okay.

Our poor son will not know any different, sadly, but maybe he could break the cycle of divorce IF that ends up happening to us.
I think of the show Californication, where the parents are still "friends" (not that I want that) and the last season I saw, the ex wife ended up leaving her fiance at the alter and reuniting with her ex (David Ducovny's character). This is a few years after their divorce, I think. (TV is silly but art can imitate reality, right? :-) )

Well, tomorrow I will keep busy again during the 7-11 time that WH takes our baby boy. He is teething right now, so I kind of hope he is fussy during his visit with OW! Maybe he will even spit up on her! Wooo ha ha ha! >:-|