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[awest1217]

Things keep getting better. I went to the doctor and H came with me "to take care of S", but I think he just wanted to be there. He offered to pay the copay, but I said it was no problem. The doctor put me on an antibiotic. Hopefully it works soon! We then went to Meijer to get the prescription. I said I also needed diapers for S, distilled water for his humidifier, tylenol for S, and new shoes for S. (this morning I put on S's shoes and he says "mommy my feet hurt" so I checked and his shoes were too small...ugh).

H paid for everything. We had driven separately due to doing everything right after work so H walked us to our car. He said how he has "no money" so I asked what happened to our savings and he said he is trying to do everything just on his salary. I said how I understood. I said just to give him a heads up that his car insurance bill would be coming in January so he can plan ahead. H said I plan on being home by then...THAT'S RIGHT A TIME!!!!! I said that would be great and I would love it. We talked some more about what I had learned and how great this week has been. A lot of thanking one another, very heart-felt. H acted like he didn't want to leave and I said we could go out to eat or eat at our house (he had asked if we had plans for dinner and I said possibly because my brother's birthday is Tuesday. I think it bothered him). He said no, but we did a lot of hugging and talked probably for 20 minutes.

H said he wanted to get home to finish reading the forgiveness book I talked about. He really seems like he wants to really make things work and is truly starting to act that way. Still being cautiously positive, but more and more small steps.

The only thing I am sad about is that I have plans this weekend. I mean this is the first weekend since H left again that I have plans, and it seems like H really wants to hang out, but who knows. He might never have called tomorrow and I do deserve to have fun. It makes him think.

My hope is starting to go up and up.