My story begins with a twist...

[TrentC]

Not much to update here. Mostly journaling.

Things seem to be coming along slowly. She has gone back to her bedroom again; when it came up in conversation, she said it feels like there are "strings attached" to sleeping next to me. I told her I understood how she might feel that way but that it was unwarranted, and left it at that.

She now initiates some physical affection -- she came up to me while I was cooking dinner and put her arm around me -- and the past couple of days I've ended up with her on her bed. (Basically, I go to wake her up in the morning; she rolls over on her side and kinda pulls my arm around her, and I lay down next to her for a few minutes. This morning, we both feel asleep again for about half an hour and I was almost late for work. I wonder what would happen on a weekend...)

The last time she initiated any kind of R talk was spur-of-the-moment. I was headed to bed, I gave her a quick kiss and she started to say something. I asked her what it was and she said "nothing". Well, I don't play that game any more, so I asked her to tell me. She said, "I wish this was different". (I presume she refers to "not feeling anything" right now.) I said "I wish this was different, too" and went to bed.

She's not back to work full-time yet; she gets tired after lunch and her supervisor sends her home. Once we're through the holidays and she's feeling up to full speed again, I may consider discussing going to a joint MC. (Unless she brings it up first, of course...)