Good points. It allows him to redirect things onto me. It fuels the you don't trust me (which I don't entirely). And it ends up being all about me instead of him taking any responsibility for his part in things.
You know when all that was going down with the suicide attempt - he was all over - understanding my feelings about things. I heard I love you so many times. And now it's like it's all forgotten.
My goal today at IC is to hopefully figure out how to communicate what I need and figure out how I go forward. I'm going to have to let the checking phone records go. I did tell him I wouldn't do it anymore and I just haven't been able to let go of it. Like you said it makes me look weak and paranoid - not what I want!
At the end of the day, he's still with me. We have been making progress. Maybe I need to start focusing more on what is working and less on waiting for the other shoe to drop.
