As I've said this several times before......you have had to face sooooo much this past year. It would have taken a big toll on any man, and you have done an excellent job.
Downsizing your lifestyple right now is what you will have to do until you secure a job. If your buddies are "true" friends, then they will understand if you turn down some invitations to some events. Maybe the three of you can hang out in a way that isn't so expensive.
Do you have a good group of people to socialize with? You need to be around those who are positive about what's important in life........and not anyone who pulls you down or somebody who is superficial. I'm not implying your buddies are...by no means. Just talking about others in general.
You have worked hard on the physical, mental, and emotional parts.....and have made great strides. As your "mom", I want to encourage you to feed the spiritual side also. No matter how well we tend to the other three parts.....if the spiritual part of us is starving, then life just doesn't seem to be right. Now that you are back home, maybe you can get going in that again. Don't look at it as if it were another area of life that you had to "work" on, right now, but rater like a shelter of peace and restoration. You need that, sweetie. You need to go to church and soak up the Word so it will strengthen you for what you are about to face.
Talk to you later. Hope you have a good day.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!