Is this the end of my marriage?

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Thanks again guys. I do really appreciate the support. It's good to know people have your back especially when you're still not 100% sure you have done the right thing. Time will tell.

This was after she told me that she wanted a divorce and likely was going to start dating the OM, despite him being married.

Do you not think this was a test to see if YOU would do the begging and pleading?

There was even a moment when she got so mad at me for trying to kick her out that she slapped me. Fortunately I did not respond cause I'd probably seriously harm her. Plus I felt sorry for her cause it just seemed like she was having a complete meltdown.

That's the realisation that Plan B is off the table now. So the table is bear and what the h*ll does she do now?

When she told you about the OM, she expected you to respond with begging and pleading. When that didn't happen she panicked.

If / when OM leaves my W I think I will go through something similar.

However, there was still some lack of taking responsibility on her part, and therefore I didn't take it seriously.

I hope she does one day (soon) see what she has done to herself, her M and both of your families.

That means you take care of you and the rest will just happen.

I am looking on the NC now as time and space to let me sort myself out. So that when she comes back and says she either still wants the Big D or reconciliation, or even something else, I can deal with them calmly and rationally.

You will be fine. After a few days, things will start getting easier.

I know things will start to be easier for me as the days go on. I hope I can stay strong enough to resist the urge to drop her the odd text. Time will tell.