Thank you for that, I think I may have been to hard on myself. I am not happy with the way I have treated my W, but I think I was being a little harsh on myself.
This is why I said I would write the letter, but would not give it to her until I was sure that what I had said was what I really felt.
I was controlled by fear the last 6 weeks. I am acknowledging the fear now; I am walking towards it and not letting it control me.
If you do not BELIEVE it will never happen. I was expecting the MC to do the work I needed to do.
I have a choice in this sitch. I choose to not give up; I choose to push forward in my life. I am not ignorant, but nothing has ever been achieved by people who did not believe in what they were trying to achieve.
The current situation is that it is not over; we are still together in the same house and bed. If that changes I will deal with that change when it happens, good or bad.
My W keeps telling me she can’t help how she feels and she is just being honest. Well neither can I and I am being honest to myself and how I feel.
I have been allowing my W feelings and actions to affect me for to long.
M: 30 W: 32 Married: 9 years s: 2.8 Bomb dropped: 7-10-09 same house, bed, no physical contact My sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1871805&page=1
