Today she came over briefly to do some clothes. She said a few words to me before leaving. I felt good cause I didn't even feel much emotion at all. But then later on as it sunk in, it started to rattle around in my head. Mainly the paranoid thoughts such as whether or not she still thinks or even worries about me. Haven't heard a peep from her in a week at least. She hasn't even asked where I plan to move to. We swiped a couple of messages about the pet, but that was about it. I have not let her go. Not even close, and I don't fool myself into thinking so. I love my wife with all my heart, and I probably would take her with me, but she would have to ask. There has to be some effort with her. And what pisses me off is that if she gave some efford, I'd meet her more than halfway. I always wondered if it would be good to tell the spouse about what you want if they haven't provided it. I mean, how can you create this great love story if the other person doesn't know the script? But i keep myself busy enough not to think about that, and in so doing, grow accustomed to being without her. It doesn't help to have other ladies around who are interested in spending time with me. It occupies time and help me feel better about myself.
