Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

I just re-read my thread and cringed at all of the sloppy grammar! I must admit that I type in a hurry and don't proofread before I push the "submit" button.

Tomorrow night is the exotic dance class!

Also, wanted to add that I don't wear my ring and I asked WH to give me his back in April. I never exposed the A to his work but they can wonder about his ring. He can make up any story though.
He asked me to please not throw it away and give it back to him some day so he can cherish the memories. I put our rings together with the anniversary cards he gave me that have handwritten things like "we can get through anything together" or "I am the luckiest man to be married to you" etc. etc.

People who don't know about the A just assume my ring doesn't fit right now b/c it didn't during my third trimester and I gained weight. But I am losing the weight now so it should fit soon. I guess I just keep it off and not say anything.

And I took down our wedding and "couple" photos back in April, too, but did not burn them or anything.

We only have 1 photo of both of us with our son; taken 15 minutes after he was born.It isn't up anywhere.

And WH's stuff is still here.The only things he has taken to his apartment include an old 32 inch TV, the espresso maker, some clothes. He did take the blow up mattress originally but brought it back when he stayed in the guest room for the 3 weeks around the time our son was born.

By the way, he used to try to make it sound like he was staying at his apartment. I KNEW he wasn't! (I used to say "don't you need a lamp or a chair?you must have to sit on the floor or rely on the ceiling light" just to mess with him) But then he left his bed (the mattress)here after the 3 weeks were up. I guess as a way to let me know he wasn't staying the night at his apartment.

He would talk about getting some of the old furniture but needed someone to help him. (Besides OW, none of his friends from work know about the A, and his dad lives out of town. So he has no one to ask for help unless he tells them!!haha)

He was renting his apartment on a 6 month lease, but when he brought up D talk last month, I asked him if he was still leasing and he said he switched it to month to month. Wow, so he is paying all the bills right now (until I return to work in August), the mortgage and $850 every month for his apartment!Not to mention the gas that it takes for him to drive to our house and back to hers every day!

Why bother with the empty apartment? WH is paid modestly but has always been good with money...surely he is racking up debt on credit cards, which is something he has always avoided in the past! haha lucky for him, if/when we R, I still have the savings from when we divided everything back in March and set up separate accounts. I have added more to the savings since then.
I have had my eye on this 56 inch TV with LCD screen, though ;-)