Not Me...Ever part 2

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Trent ~ No problem at all. I have the copy and I love that I can keep it in my wallet.

BIM ~ Trying to stay positive is a real challenge at times but you are right - We are where we are supposed to be.
Gotta go check on Rocked and see what is up over there...

Journal/Vent ~
As I was putting the little one to bed tonight, I got to thinking and I realized what has been bothering me lately...

I see the new people come here and read the sitchs they are in, I read the people who have been here from when I joined and I read the archives of the people I hear from and it dawned on me...

I am mad that my H left the way he did..Good. About time. Anger is one of the stages that we must go through - and in my case,I even had a few good screaming-in-the-car anger rages at God. We're allowed to, you know. Besides, He understands.

I have yet to see a sitch where someone came home from work and their spouse had packed up and moved while they were at work. Leaving behind no note, no phone call while their son slept in the next room...Coward

Just a text 7 hours later saying they weren't coming home.Heartless coward.

I see spouses leaving all the time here however they give some kind of semi warning. Yeah, though small comfort it is, I assure you. Still, I understand your point...and your anger.

I don't understand how after 22 years together, I barely warranted a text message...You warranted much more to be sure. He couldn't summon up anything more than that because he doesn't have it within him. That and cowardice. And guilt

I didn't have a chance to fight, I didn't have a chance to let him see any of the changes (I know they aren't for him, I am just saying), I didn't have a chance to 180 him...Yeah, but you might have used that "chance" to do all the wrong things we semi-warned have done: plead, cry, beg, ILY and push him out the door anyway. Do your 180s and GAL for you. You know this. If he doesn't see it directly, he'll get intel reports from the field.

And now he has the balls to go dark on me? From my perspective, he has no balls. It's probably cowardly, guilty darkness with some other less-than-admirable traits thrown in.

Go/stay dark on him. Out of strength and dignity.

Now, repeat after me: "Finish this day and be done with it,
You have done what you could....."

No worries, not cutting just venting Great!

Goodnight and (((Serenity)))