Agh, I don't learn! Had an email spat over a phone number of a mutual friend. W said she felt "funny" giving me the number, which irked me to no end. It's just a number, right? I didn't want to tell her why, as I want my life to be my own right now. I just felt like she was making me jump through hoops because she had something I wanted. It felt offensive.
I guess I overreacted. But it would have been so simple just to give me the number and let the friend decide if she wanted to talk to me or not.
It was about career advice, nothing to do w/ my W.
I guess if everything is such a struggle, I must be doing things wrong.
Mark, if we ever run out of 2x4s on this board can we borrow some of your seemingly endless self-flagellating supply?
Good Lord, man, if anyone ever needed a respite from constantly questioning, second-guessing, and beating himself up, it's you.
How's it been working out for you? And where is Mark Evolving?
I'm serious. Take a day or two, go away, stay active, exhaust yourself and distract yourself and if any of your sitch sneaks into your thoughts, whip out one of those 2x4s of yours and whack it.
Really. Take a break. Get away.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
