'' I had an awakening this morning"

[acsnow]

Well, It is over between wife and me. I did everything I was not suppose to do. I went over to house and told her that I am moving back in this weekend, she said no your not. I said yes I am. I said your the one who is not happy and wants to be alone so you should move out. Then she said you wont be able to afford this place on your own. Then she threatened filing papers tomorrow, and that house will go up for sale. Then I said the past 15 yrs you have used me and used me as your stepping stone to get where your are now. She said that she felt used also.
She said I am not going to disrupt D17 life her final year of school. I then said that you do what you have to do. If you want to file papers tomorrow then go for it. Then I walked out.
She then called me to say that she does want us to be civil through this. She did say that she has no feelings for me and that it is not fare to you. She said this has never been about you. It has always been about me.
Ofcourse then I plead and beg her to reconsider that our marrige is worth something. After things really calmed down I asked her if I was a good husband to her and father to D17. I asked her if she respected me? She said yes. And then I asked her if she had ever cheated on me. She said no. Then she said she was "different person and that I know who my real identity is". I told her that I will always love her and cherish our life that we shared and that I will miss her. I told that I have never regretted once getting involved with her. I said that I wish you all the best and that I hope someday you can meet someone to make you happy.
I dissapointed a few people on this board and I am sorry. I did everything I was not suppose to do.
I am not sure if I even want the house now. There will be just to many memories. I will start a new life and create new memories.
I guess the best thing to come out of this is that I dont have to be in "limbo" anymore and I know what direction I am going now and it wont be with her. It is a big load of my chest.