Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

Thanks guys. I actually feel a little better already. Have a knot in my stomach at the moment in case she suddenly appears at the door.

Prior to OM moving in I had told W to leave me and D alone twice (once quite forcefully) but she came straight back with to me with the predictable 'text if that is what you really want' line. So I am kind of expecting her to do something the same but in person this time.

Having said that, since OM has moved in things have changed and she no longer needs me at all. However, we will see in the next weeks and months how she copes without eating cake any more.

I still see how things are going to go for her and OM. I know my wife pretty well and I know, deep down, that the only chance for their breakup is OM leaving as she will not kick him out for fear of being on her own. If he does leave she will cling to him desperately but if he continues to stay away she will have a breakdown. I can see it clear as day. That is my prediction.

My only wish is that I have moved on by that point and will be strong enough not to pick up the pieces of her life that she destroyed.

I am glad I did it. I'm glad I did it tonight. And I'm proud of myself for taking the bull by the horns and doing it even though the fear was crippling me. Feel The Fear and Do It Anyway ...

Finally I feel bad as I will not be giving her updates on my mother (still her MIL) but I'm not convinced she cares anyway.

Onwards and upwards.