BUNS, ABS, AND HEART OF STEEL #3

[ACJ]

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I remember very vividly when XH had been gone for about a year getting a feeling and almost words in my head that everything was going to be ok and he would be home. At the time it gave me comfort. However as time went on and things went from bad to worse simply b/c XH wanted it that way for me 'signs' like these became like thorns in my side.

The turning point in my sitch was when OW got pregnant. I knew then that whilst I still had it in my heart to forgive an affair (however hard) I didn't have it in me to forgive a child with another woman. More importantly I didn't want to deprive yet another child of it's father as may well have happened if I'd hung on and things had turned out beter. I couldn't bear to see another young life go through what my ownchildren have been through (and to some extent still are). So I made a choice to drop the rope completely and move on.

In the last week or so I've had som many people ask me what I've had 'done' b/c I look so different. People have commented how happy I look. Just tonight I've been out with ex colleagues for someone else's leaving party and they all said how happy I looked. I suddenly realised that I am happy. In fact I think this is probably the first time in my life I have been truley happy iwith ME.

You will know when (and if) it is time to let go. When you do you will feel a sense of serenity you never thought possible.