I am kind of at a place where I have never been before, and I thought I would post over here since maby there are some people with more experience in the same kind of thing.
Well, after 4 1/2 mo of S, finding DB and DR, and not doing a very good job with it. Lots of mess ups and backslides. I finally came to the close to a breakdown. I just said thats enough, I cant live like this anymore. So I just started living for myself, making myself someone I wanted to be around. (DBing the right wy I guess). I still love my W, and she has been having a hard time too, so I also helped her out financally, without telling her, just paying her bills and stuff. And I wrote letters to her. Well I think it worked.
She called Sun. and asked if I wanted to go to family C with her and the girls. You can catch up on the previou thread if you want.
Anyway right now she is taking all the blame for our M and the problems we have had during our S. I havnt really talked to her in length about it because I dont know if she is ready. Just last week I didnt know if I would ever see her again. I dont care what she has done. And I really dont want to backslide.
I know I should just be her friend right now, but MIL warned me not to do that too much. For fear that W would never get the old feelings back, and just be friends. I think she still loves me and wants to be with me, she is just scared.
