Thx rocked...no Im not letting it upset me. He has def pulled back, which im ok with, and actually a bit thankful. I kinda wanted to as well so this works out.
He has checked my music profile a few times, I managed to work on my music a little this week and made some changes. So Im sure he was curious. He always had an interest in my music and was supportive.
Im really searching myself to figure out exactly what it is I want from all this. Well, not just from this, but just in general. As far as a relationship, whether its with HIM or anyone else. Respect and honesty are top of the list. Always were but somehow that got lost along the way. Not to use my health issues as an excuse, because they certainly arent, but I think that and my work-a-holic attitude regarding my music helped get where we are now. My general stubborness def did. Some things I need to work on myself.
Ive had a lot of time to think :P . Sometimes thats a good thing and sometimes it isnt. Still working on not letting my emotions get the best of me and stay detached. Im MUCH better about it. MUCH.
