I'm glad you like it. Both your name and your statement (that I put in boldface) reminded me of it. I've had it in a frame on my dresser for years. Say it every night. Still keep it on the dresser even though I know it by heart.
Kinda blah and tired today. Didn't go to work. Bummin' around in sweats. Got some things on my mind:stepson still ignoring me, why my STBXWs walls seem thicker an higher even though we have virtually NO contact and her longed-for D id just 6 weeks away. When we do have contact, she of the cold, dead eyes and disdainful expression (as I've dubbed her) acts more and more like she despises me.
Some have said I should be tougher w/demands in mediation (and I have been more so) but it's basically just stuff and not much of it, and money (even less) so I really just don't care. "Fine, whatever, let's just get this over with and JUST. GO. AWAY." Some have suggested she probably doesn't respect that and a woman can't love a man she doesn't respect. But I'm really no longer interested in having her love or respect. Don't have them now. Haven't had them for a year. Don't miss 'em anymore. In most ways better off without 'em. Aren't you glad you asked?
Not helping things sitting here moping. Gonna shower, dress, go get a haircut, do some banking, run some errands and shake off this self-imposed funk.
Thanks, Seren, see you later.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
I printed it out and will keep it on my person wherever I go!
That's why I made it available. I have a PDF file with a 3x4 layout, if you wanted to take it and get them printed onto cardstock.
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
You know she doesn't despise you - It is her defense mechanism - Same with my H and his "out of sight, out of mind" manner.
I think it is a cop-out for both of them and quite frankly it is just plain sad.
From what I have seen here, you are a good man my friend and any woman would be lucky to call you her H.
The dreaded self-imposed funk - Right where I was at this time yesterday - Either wallow in it or shake it off - I wallowed and it just drug my day out, I am hoping that doesn't happen to you
Now stop moping and go get your ears lowered
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
Just poppin' in with some hugs and puppy licks, 13. I do think that "dark" is where you need to be right now, as difficult as that can be on some days.
