Serenity
Originally Posted By: Serenity13
(((Gardener)))

Absolutely perfect - Thank you for this.

I will add this quote to my book...

How are you doing today?
I'm glad you like it. Both your name and your statement (that I put in boldface) reminded me of it. I've had it in a frame on my dresser for years. Say it every night. Still keep it on the dresser even though I know it by heart.

Kinda blah and tired today. Didn't go to work. Bummin' around in sweats.
Got some things on my mind:stepson still ignoring me, why my STBXWs walls seem thicker an higher even though we have virtually NO contact and her longed-for D id just 6 weeks away. When we do have contact, she of the cold, dead eyes and disdainful expression (as I've dubbed her) acts more and more like she despises me.

Some have said I should be tougher w/demands in mediation (and I have been more so) but it's basically just stuff and not much of it, and money (even less) so I really just don't care. "Fine, whatever, let's just get this over with and JUST. GO. AWAY." Some have suggested she probably doesn't respect that and a woman can't love a man she doesn't respect. But I'm really no longer interested in having her love or respect. Don't have them now. Haven't had them for a year. Don't miss 'em anymore. In most ways better off without 'em.
Aren't you glad you asked?

Not helping things sitting here moping. Gonna shower, dress, go get a haircut, do some banking, run some errands and shake off this self-imposed funk.

Thanks, Seren, see you later.


Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac