Everything you said is true and I know it deep in my heart, I wish I wouldn't allow the thoughts to overtake me however I can at least admit, they aren't as bad as when this journey first started.
No apologies on the h/j - This helps me a lot so I appreciate any input and I am willing to try different options to help me make my journey a little easier.
It is only when I stop the truly look at the situation as a whole that I beging to have a problem.
I have gone totally dark on him...We don't speak at all not even about the kids anymore - He has basically taken the "Out of sight, out of mind" approach and I can't lie and say it doesn't break my heart.
I received an email this morning with the following passage which I thought was perfect after the last couple of days - Just another reminder that He is still looking out for us.
(((Hugs))) and prayers for you.
"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." II Corinthians 4:8-9
I will look up the song on youtube - Thank you
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
