Spouse Suffering From Depression

[Lucky11too]

I'm just feeling a little down this morning. I'm glad H seems to be really trying to keep the communication open for whatever reason, but I know it's all in vain if he doesn't get his depression/drinking under control (which I believe if we work on this 1st, that will fix the 2nd). Yay, for all these baby steps, but I'm having a hard time enjoying his 'up' time b/c I'm really just sitting here waiting for his next low to hit (and take our 2 steps back again). Unfortunately, although things could always change, he is still saying he does not want to get help at all. It's hard when there really is no end in sight for this roller coaster. Maybe just being a little pensive right now. I'm going to continue to encourage him during these good times and enjoy them (and if I have to, I'll act "as if") and do what I can w/o being overly pushy to get him the help he so dearly needs. That really is my only hope for true change...