Trying to save my M. W not really trying though.

[etrain]

That's such a tough question. Right now I'd say I'm 95% certain I don't want her back. I do miss the way things used to be...she was a big part of my life for 13 years. That's why I only said 95%. I'd love to have my "old" W back...but this version of my W is a completely different person. And I don't know if I'd ever be able to completely forgive her for the A...it would always be in the back of my mind.

I'm focusing more on detaching and GAL'ing right now. I guess that's why I'm still posting here even though I'm not sure I'd want to bust the divorce even if I could. For me to even consider reconciliation, it would take a HUGE committment and a lot of convincing on her part.
I wish I had a better answer to your question.