BUNS, ABS, AND HEART OF STEEL #3

[TRUSTING]

Today on my way to work I turned on the radio.
A song played about this man who had left his family and the last verse of the song was, "I will be coming home to you".

It is difficult when you decide to move on from your relationship when you hear something like this. Lately, I have been getting a lot of these signs. Something keeps telling me to hang in there. My faith tells me that I have to keep listening to these signs. My heart tells me enough is enough.

I would like to hear from others regarding "these type messages". What has been happening? What have been some of your signs? Do you ignore these signs or hang your heart on hope?

More and more my family is telling me to move on and detach. Just this morning my father told me he is so worried about what my ex has done to me emotionally. He no longer has any feelings toward him. All these conflicting signs are happening to me.

I feel I have done a good job of getting a life, loving my children and friends. Yes, I would be lying to you if I told you I did not think of my ex. I do. It is not as intense or emotional, but I do miss the old ex and our family life.

But..... deep down, I still feel him in my soul, my covenant partner, the father of my children. I won't stop loving him, at times I hate him for what he has done and the damage he has caused, but I know he is not right.

I have dated some, but no one seems to "curl my toes" so to speak. It still feels wrong to date and so I have stopped. I am not unhappy, most of the time I am content. Memories don't torture anymore, they actually make me smile. The kids and I always talk about old times and the things ex did when he was not in his crisis. They are good wonderful memories.

So let me know what you guys have been experienceing.....