I hope I am doing well. Definitely having some major ups and downs and still letting little things get to me too much on occasion.
We are up to a milestone here. It was a year ago within a few days of me sitting on the bathroom floor with my H sobbing and telling me how messed up he was. It is also a year looking back that the replay started, the spending, the new clothes, dying the hair, becoming a gym rat, and the major detaching from the family. When his MLC started is anyone's guess. Based on subtle changes I noticed in retrospect it could have been months earlier at least. I really can't think of any defining moment or big event that happened that could have jump started it.
I can't believe it has been that long, yet here we are. He is still spinning his wheels and getting nowhere as far as I can tell. It has been an emotionally exhausting ride for me. I'm sure for him, too.
